Based on some real life experiences....
My Depression destroyed you
If only i knew the effect it had,
If only i hadn't wanted you so bad,
I knew you saw thourgh the marks i hide,
But i didn't know it was killing you inside.
If only I'd of realised how,
Maybe we would be together now,
I saw your sadness and blamed it on me,
'I love you' i sighed to see what your reaction would be.
He whispered and smiled "i love you too"
I told him sadly "if only that were true..."
He turned and walked out of that door,
I wouldn't see him again anymore...
No last kiss to say goodbye,
I didn't see the tears he'd cry,
If only things had gone as planned,
I could have changed, held your hand,
Stopped you from making your own doomed fate,
sealed with my words and both our hate,
My depression and sadness caused you that day,
To take that blade and wash it all away,
I'm sorry i did it, I didn't know,
I wish you were here, why'd ya have to go?
I can't bring you back with all these tears i've cried,
I wish i'd stopped you from committing Suicide....
So many things i wanted to say,
I never did, i'm sorry,
I never wanted to end it this way,
But i never stopped it., I'm sorry.
Can;t stand to see you, hear you speak,
Those words repeating "it's over"
I'm hurting myself, my futures bleak,
Why are you so hard to get over?
I don't know why i can never forget,
These memories that torture my mind,
Why am i always feeling this regret,
I can't push it out of my mind.
I stood at your funeral with silent tears,
How many more times can i say i'm sorry?
It doesn't matter now, gone are those years.
The time i should have told you... I'm sorry.
I'm barely breathing and i say to no-one,
"why doesn't anyone care"
No-ones missing me, I'm going-going-gone,
My friend 'Loneliness' is always there.
You don't cry for me as i cry for you,
You don't miss me, i know,
Plagued with all the things you do,
You forgot me a long time ago.
I cut your name a thousand times and bled,
I'm sleeping less and less,
I'm swarmed with what you never said,
Trapped in my loneliness.
These feelings you can never hide,
as the scars slowly peel,
Feeling cold, dead hollow inside,
But 'Loneliness' everyone feels.