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I can't stand the fact that I love you so much then when i look into your eyes i can see that you don't care at all.....
Life changing.
(The sortened and edited version)
When you feel betrayed what do you do?
When you see them stop and wonder,
why you are so blue,
What can you say, what do you feel?
When all that you know is,
that these feelings are for real.
Tears of sadness, Tears of hate,
Tears of humiliation,
on why you took the bait,
Trying to remember the good times not the bad,
These whirlwind thoughts,
are driving you mad.
Holding the memories tight in your hand,
but trying to keep them,
is like holding sand,
They slip through your fingers, out of your head,
and then you start thinking...
"Would I be better off dead?"
Feeling cursed, cold and alone,
when all you want to do,
is just to go home,
but when at home you want to be out,
and no-one understands anymore,
what you're about.
I'm feeling hurt, hate hearing lies,
Everytime i think of him,
a part of me dies,
Why was i so stupid to fall in love again?
And now i know,
That life won't be the same.
Regret
I can't get rid of this feeling inside,
I'm screaming to break out yet i hide,
Lying in silence, wishing we'd never met,
That one moment of happiness for a life time of regret.
Suffering these memories, torturing my mind,
Wishing we'd of tried more, now i'm left behind,
I want to move on but like a butterfly in a net,
I'm trapped in this moment , a lifetime of regret.
I thought the you loved me, I wanted you there,
I drownedmyself in tears, you didn't care.
You wanted to leave, I didn't want you to go yet,
Alone with my suffering, my hate and regret.
I swallowed your poison, you jokes and lies,
And choked on it when we said our goodbyes,
I'm stuck in that memory. I'll never forget,
One day of happines for a lifetime of regret.
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These poems reflect heartbreak and sadness as i've had not alot of heartbreak but when i have had it it's been ALOT worse
than what people who have alot of relationships make out it is... maybe it's just me i dunno but i seriously always get hurt
even if i do the dumping..... bleh....
Broken Hearts Always Bleed
The Pains Choking me inside,
Pouring out why i never died,
Bleeding it's horror, choking in need,
but broken hearts always bleed.
Suffocating in my mind, I hide,
From the hate, FEAR... you LIED!
I want to go, let me be freed,
because broken hearts always bleed.
Drowning in the tears i cried,
whilst crimson flows, my suicide,
but now it's over, done is the deed,
a dead broken heart where love did bleed.
Lovers Heart
To weave a web of mystery,
to see what you wish to see,
the ravelled threads can rend apart,
remove the hopes from a lovers heart.
Whispering words, a sigh of sighs,
The ebb and flow of the ocean tides,
one breath, one word may end or start,
The hopes that live in a lovers heart.
Look to love and when it goes,
give it wings and river flows,
But if such love is meant to be,
Hope is home and the heart is free.
Under the heavens we journey afar,
on road's life, the guiding star,
So let love rise and let it part,
Let hope have a place in a lovers heart.
I think about the heartbreak,
I think about the pain,
thoughts go hazy in my mind,
their advice is in vain.
I cut to end my suffering,
I cut to feel real,
This stinging makes me feel alive...
it's all that i can feel.
I cry because i love you,
I cry because i care,
I cry because when i awake
you will not be there.
Alone with my addiction
Somethings happening to me, i don't know what,
I'm pocessed by self infliction,
I hope your happy, you left me to rot,
I'm left alone with my addiciton.
I'm splitting in two through love and hate ,
I feel like i'm going insane,
These anti depressants will have to wait,
as my addiction takes pover again.
I like the way that i'm not ok,
and you don't even care,
and how everything always work out your way,
but my addiction is always there,
I'm obsessed with knives and the pain they bring,
But no matter what i do,
I know now that i was nothing,
but completely addicted to you.
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Life only brings pain at the worst times....
Can't hide these feelings
(slightly edited version)
I'm holding this tear in my hand,
but you don't care,
you just turn away,
when i stop and stare.
I try to ignore this feeling,
that i feel inside,
But the more i try,
the less i hide.
Theres tears on my face,
Theres blood on my arm,
You wouldn't care,
If i caused myself harm.
I try to be different,
i try to fit in,
Hide my Depression,
Behind each false grin.
You always were a liar,
but i thought you loved me,
I guess theres no happy ending,
and lonely i'll be.
Shattered Dreams
A single word from when we part,
can't heal these wounds across my heart,
I try toblank out thoughts of you,
but it always seems to impossible to do,
One wish, one hope... shattered so fast,
Memories now fading in the past.
Silent tears being washed away,
Your face haunting me everyday,
Thoughts of "what if's" and why
the constant thought of wanting to die....
Now suffering these lonely days,
I thought you'd be there always,
I'd hope you'd always be there for me,
But you'll soon forget what you cannot see,...
Trying to move on, being back at the start,
Blanking out this aching in my heart,
Dreams and thoughts will fade away,
but the memory of you is here to stay.
Alone with my addiction
Somethings happening to me, but i don't know what,
I'm pocessed with self infliction,
I hope you're happy, you left me to rot,
I'm left alone with my addiction.
I'm splitting in two, through love and hate,
I feel like i'm going insane,
These anti depressants will have to wait,
as my addiction takes over again.
I like the way that i'm not ok,
and you don't even care,
and how everything works out your way,
but my addictions always there.
I'm obsessed with knives and the pain they bring,
But no matter what i do,
I know that now,that i was nothing,
yet completely addicted to you.
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